If You Had Just a Tiny Bit of Energy Left, What Would You Spend It On?

For the past four days, I’ve basically just been lying in bed. I got so sick that I didn’t feel alive at all. It felt like I was just dying. That’s how bad I felt. And now I’ve finally started to feel a little better. I’m not fully recovered yet, but I’ve already begun to get back to my normal life. And during this time, I’ve reevaluated my priorities once again—what I want to devote my energy and time to.

A lot has been happening in my life lately. I have a huge number of plans, projects, ideas—everything I want to bring to life. And it’s precisely because of my illness that I’ve started to protect my energy so fiercely—every second of my time, every ounce of strength. Literally every last bit. When you have almost no energy left, you start to understand very clearly where you want to spend it. For example, my partner and I started living together. We began spending quite a lot of time together. And it’s nice; it’s great; I like it. But I noticed that I had less energy left to do the things that move me forward. I was still doing them, still moving forward, but not the way I wanted to.

And when I got sick, I suddenly realized very clearly: I want to direct those little bits of energy toward myself. Toward myself—and then some more.

For example, my partner wants more tenderness; he wants to cuddle and kiss. And that’s all wonderful. But I feel so bad, I have so little strength, that I don’t even want to spend energy on that. I want to keep it for myself—to build up my strength, to recover, to get well. And when I started feeling a little better, when those brief bursts of energy began to appear, I immediately began to realize exactly what I wanted to spend them on. I even developed a specific routine.

First, I held a consultation. Because I love my job.

Second—I focused on what moves me forward.

I suddenly had new ideas about how I wanted to present myself and my products.

And I immediately started putting them into action. And you know what’s interesting? It was easy. I enjoyed doing it. I saw results and enjoyed the process. And it brought me much more fulfillment than some of the other things I’d done before to promote myself. That doesn’t mean I’ll stop doing everything else. But I realized once again how important it is to choose ways to achieve your goals that either give you energy or at least don’t drain it. Because why constantly push toward your goals against your will when you can find ways that you actually enjoy?

Third—I danced. Right in the bedroom with my partner—a dance of embraces with elements of Bachata.

And fourth—I protected my energy.

We both work from home. And before that, we worked in the same room. That meant constant noise—two phone calls at the same time, conversations, distractions. And all of this creates a huge mess in your head. As a result, you don’t get anything done the way you’d like to, and you start getting angry. But why get angry?

Because all of this takes up far more energy than it should. And as a result, you don’t have any energy left for yourself, for your plans, or for what you really wanted to do. So I realized I didn’t want to waste my energy on that anymore.

So I simply moved my workspace into the next room. Now my office is in my bedroom. But it’s my own private space. This is where my work is, where I have peace and quiet. I love spending time alone, I love the silence, and I love it when no one distracts me. And when I’m working, I’m working. It’s important to me that no one comes in or distracts me during that time. And it’s really just a small change—simply moving to work in a different room.

But what a difference it makes!

It protects my time, my energy, and my concentration. It shields me from the constant noise and chaos in my head. And here’s what I’ve realized once again for myself.

How important it is to value your own energy. And how important it is to value your time.

After all, we very often spend them almost automatically—on socializing, on certain activities, on routine tasks, on things that distract us from what we actually want. And we don’t even stop to think about how much of it all that takes up. But when you have literally just a speck of energy left, you suddenly start making completely different choices. And I think it’s very helpful to ask yourself this question sometimes:

If I had just a tiny bit of energy left right now—just a little bit of strength—what would I spend it on?

What would I do first? What is truly worth my time, my energy, and my life? Because sometimes it’s precisely these moments that really highlight what’s truly important to us. And perhaps we don’t have to wait until we’re sick or completely exhausted to finally start taking care of ourselves, our time, and our energy.